This does not have to be difficult topic. Honestly a lot of us are dealing with it. It makes it easier when you do not feel so alone. It makes it easier when you open up and talk about it. You are not broken. You are not a freak. You are not weird. I am here. I am a friend.
I have struggled with many difficult tasks in my life. Growing up, I was raised by someone who didn’t love me. I believe that caused me a lot of challenges in my adult life. As a teenager I was classified as emo. I wore the colorful skinny jeans, crazy hair, and listened to screamo. (let’s be real I still listen to it now)
I really did hate living though. I really did cry myself to sleep every single night. I would be so angry each morning when I woke up still alive. I wrote so many suicidal notes. I had it all planned on how I wanted to do it. I knew no one would actually care. They cry and get the attention from others, but get over it easily. I didn’t believe it could get easier. I thought I would be angry and in pain forever. When I became homeless, I was even more tempted to give up. I had absolutely no reason to keep pushing along. I had no family at that time and no place to lay my head…. Somehow I managed to get through it.
I honestly have no advice on how to get through the miserable moments. I just kept going. Even at my rock bottom. Now I am in love with my soulmate. I have a beautiful daughter. They make me so happy and give me so much purpose. I have a great relationship with the Lord. My life has really turned around. Now whenever I feel myself starting to turn around, I handle it better. I think about everything I’m grateful for and I pray. It honestly makes me feel so much better. I am so thankful that I made it through my rock bottom to tell my story. Please don’t pity or judge me after knowing it.
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